I've been feeling uncomfortable, overwhelmed, and confused in everyday environments so I'm taking a break, retreating.

awaking from a futuristic-like dream - my reaction

I long for life as in the beginning
I tried to love you
I died inside
No matter how I showed the meaning from inside
I cried under my pillow each night beside you
Long ago we had smiles with miles apart
Now I'm trying to be good enough
on the edge, on the brink from it all...
Stuck up a separate zone...
alone.

things are falling around me
there are dark shadows and flashes of light yet I feel fearless
It's only a force teaching me a lesson
a lesson I insist I already know
a path of words before me
as if coming from a dream
although its a reality,
the only reality happening before me
everything unfamiliar
codes, names, all around me..
how do I unscramble them