these months

To feel LIFE again volcanically through  my core.
What was I becoming?
someone foreign, someone not me at all...
In a boxed environment, every day blending the same...
Robotic and knowing just what to expect.
No surprises. little laughter. barely a hint of understanding.
Life IS EXPLORATION and that flows with my blood and without it I'm 20%.
...My feeling for the unknown is something I've yet to find justifiable words. 

I wanted to unite our separate, quite opposing worlds...
but in order to have a single moment of peace...at least one agreeance is needed.

I didn't intend to but perhaps by my lack of thrill and your apathy slash lack of passion, I transformed into a selfish roller coaster... and for those episodes I am truly sorry.

On this day my focus is from within... twisting, turning through the dimensions of my warped and momentarily true happiness. So much could be said of the situation at hand but I'm choosing to ignore those emotions for the moment.